I’m gonna take my lumps and log 217.5 pounds this morning. So Crazy! And I’ve been soooooo good… Maybe too good. I’ve probably gone and triggered another starvation response. I’m pretty sure I’m holding a good half gallon of water at the moment. That’s four pounds of dead weight.
Zero + ; Nickel ; M: 93 ; C: 56 ; P/U: 50 ; W : 4mi
Health R.O.S.
- Weight: 217.5
- BMI: 29.3
- Fat %: 22.5
When you lose weight, your body hates a vacuum and attempts to fill the growing emptiness back up with water. This search for equilibrium can prove both frustrating and disappointing to the dieter, e.g. me.
If you sacrifice and see results, that’s one thing, but to instead see negative results is, well, a recipe to drive you crazy. It’s just so unexpected. But you soldier on. You’re gonna lose some battles on your way to winning the war. You regroup and try again.
This is what meditation practice is all about, about controlling the crazy. Keeping the crazy from derailing your progress. Meditation is how you deal with life’s unexpected twists and turns. It’s how you overcome the curve balls and the bumps in the road. I’m disassociating from this minor setback. I know that before long, I’ll be ten pounds lighter than I am right now, as long as I persevere. So persevere I will.
Rather than giving up or getting by with another cheat day, I’m doubling down with the goal of burning through the remainder of my glycogen reserves through fasting and exercise. My hope is the resulting release of stored water will relieve me of another 2-4 pounds in short order. I know it’s only water weight, but, for me, it’s psychologically imperative.
Today will be a ‘Sixer +’. This will be particularly interesting given the fact that tonight is the NFL season opener. It will be the first such opener that I’ll be sober since forever. Well, gotta start somewhere. May as well take a stand right here, right now. I’m over crazy and craziness!
On to Day 33…
