We trade the instant dopamine rush for a lingering feeling of guilt and disappointment that itself is cured by, you guessed it, another instant dopamine rush
I mean, I have plenty of whiskey, vodka, tequila, gin, and other fine spirit on hand. Bottles and bottles and bottles of it. And there’s almost always an open bottle of Pinot Noir or Cabernet on the kitchen counter. But these lures hold no temptation for me.
Drunkenness and the Voluntary Madness of Gray Area Drinking
You could say that between the exhaustion, weight gain, and increasing frequency of negative thinking, I had become sober curious. Should I go to AA like my brother, sister-in-law, and a good buddy of mine? Did I need that kind of help? I was certainly open to the idea. Especially since I had noticed a new drinking motivation arising: drinking to relieve hangovers.
I still spend a lot of time reflecting on the phenomenon of marijuana quitting me rather than the other way around. Well, it goes without saying that it’s a hell of a lot easier to quit a bad habit if it quits you first!
It’s also powerful to understand fully what I am doing with the candy. If I was just mindlessly eating piles of candy and didn’t know why, I’d inadvertently swap alcohol addiction for obesity and diabetes.
And there it is…
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin