Sobriety Pays! Portfolio Full Year Update
I’m not only not losing this money anymore, but my vice money is actually paying me!
I’m not only not losing this money anymore, but my vice money is actually paying me!
I’ve been questioning the increasingly slippery slope of my use disorder and considering a path toward sobriety for years now.
Over the past few years, I would reflect on my lost creativity. I often wondered where the hell it disappeared to. When I think of the times I was happiest, truly in my happy place, it was when I was creating. I falsely believed that alcohol and marijuana would somehow unleash my creativity. Sadly, this false belief drove much of my drinking and drugging over the past twenty years.
There are many fears newly sober people face. I like to call these the BIG F****’s. In this blog post, I’ll cover sobriety’s five big fears from the perspective of a sober newbie.
Besides being an overused word to describe such things, journey doesn’t begin to describe the trip I’m experiencing. I’d rather use the word adventure. I’m on a sober adventure. And know this because the twists and turns have presented me with an unexpected opportunity to build myself a rather excellent sobriety toolbox.
When we work to accept impermanence we begin to realize that the past is already gone and the future is not guaranteed. So we stop giving the past and the the future so much of our attention. We stop living there. We embrace the present and savior it precious fleeting nectar.
Since I began my sobriety journey and started to recast my relationship with pot and alcohol, I had no idea, no feeling, of how numb I had become. I had been through the death of my mother-in-law, my father (at the height of Covid) – both from cancer. Like you, I dealt with Covid 19. There was also a crazy hostile work environment going on at the same time. Yet, through it all, I was numb. If I felt anything, it was anger, frustration, exhaustion.
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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