Sobriety Pays! Portfolio Full Year Update
I’m not only not losing this money anymore, but my vice money is actually paying me!
I’m not only not losing this money anymore, but my vice money is actually paying me!
I’ve been questioning the increasingly slippery slope of my use disorder and considering a path toward sobriety for years now.
I kept thinking about sipping on some Swami IPA tall boys on more than one occasion. It’s funny how I never think about pot anymore, but the voice beer and alcohol still lingers in the back crevices of my mind. I call it a voice, because it speaks to me.
Once I’m there, I will suddenly find myself in a new here. The horizon will have receded further, continuing in earnest to remain just beyond my reach. And I, as Tantalus, will continue to grasp in vain for it’s fruits.
I’ve gained so much more in my pursuit of sobriety than I ever did chasing a buzz. And while I know it will be hard at times, the best is yet to come, and the delectable flavor of victory will be marinated in struggle.
I continued, “To that point, I hadn’t had a drink in 28 days, since my day after Thanksgiving debacle. I was having a perfect sober December to remember, but then suddenly, here I was, thoroughly disappointed about our canceled trip. Without a second thought, I tossed all my sober aspirations out the window. Christmas Eve would have been day 29.”
Now that I have quantified the outsized impact a single night of drinking and debauchery can have on my body, I’ve been legitimately scared sober.
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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