Sobriety Pays! Portfolio Full Year Update
I’m not only not losing this money anymore, but my vice money is actually paying me!
I’m not only not losing this money anymore, but my vice money is actually paying me!
I’ve been questioning the increasingly slippery slope of my use disorder and considering a path toward sobriety for years now.
When you sacrifice and see results, that’s one thing, but to see negative results is, well, a recipe to drive you crazy. It’s just so unexpected. But you soldier one. You’re gonna lose some battles on your way to winning the war.
I didn’t call it a parasite back then when it’s presence became known to me through a series of recurring and often disturbing dreams. I just felt its presence and its power.
Until mindfulness led me to meaningfulness, I never perceived alcohol or pot as impediments. Sure, it wasn’t the most productive use of my time, but it was compatible with the lifestyle it created for itself. It had set me up to think sobriety was the impediment. Think about that. It’s crazy!
To be sober, to me, means sobriety in all things. And I’ll know when I arrive because I’ll finally be free. Truly.
However, it is my intention to turn down both the pot and the drinks since I’m determined to not ruin my marijuana free streak or fail at my first ‘Twice Lucky”. The long and winding road of temptation continues.
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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