Day 8 – Alcohol Free Daily Double & Pot Free Fortnite!
My inclination to drink beer is diminishing. It is not completely eradicated like marijuana, but the desire to not drink is gaining power over the once ever present desire to drink.
A human with a simple mission: explore how meditation can rewire the brain and rebuild the body. Can mindfulness meditation mitigate addiction? Do meditation and mindfulness ultimately free us from mind altering substances and other harmful vices such as overeating? What about other destructive habits and negative thought patterns? Dominic started ReturnonSobriety with the goal of exploring all of the various benefits (returns) that may be derived from a contemplative and sober life.
My inclination to drink beer is diminishing. It is not completely eradicated like marijuana, but the desire to not drink is gaining power over the once ever present desire to drink.
Most victories rang hollow. As I grew older, drinking and smoking pot became my way of coping with the emptiness. These things filled a void inside me. I sought comfort in the external, in mind altering substances. Until they themselves became empty.
Instead of euphoria, I found a spiraling use disorder. Covid 19 lockdowns added fuel to the fire. What had been a daily pot and a few times a week alcohol habit, became a nearly daily binge of both. I only took days off if the brutality of the hangover demanded it.
As drinking alcohol took primary focus on the days I was imbibing, it began to supercede eating dinner. I would crack a beer open as I was walking in the garage. It was the first thing I did after parking the car in the driveway! Soon I’d be 3-5 beers in and realized I forgot to eat.
The challenge for me in staying sober is revealing itself as a ‘time of day’ thing. In other words, I’m most inclined to drink alcoholic beverages between 4pm and 8pm. I’m finding that if I can survive this window, I’ll have a successful outcome.
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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