. I needed to reframe my relationship with alcohol. But I wasn’t yet sure what that meant. Was that full abstinence? Did I need to start attending AA meetings? Did I need to seek out professional help? Or would I be able to simply drink more responsibly with mindfulness and intention?
It’s also powerful to understand fully what I am doing with the candy. If I was just mindlessly eating piles of candy and didn’t know why, I’d inadvertently swap alcohol addiction for obesity and diabetes.
It’s almost as though Drinkie’s been gagged. I can hear his muffled voice sometimes trying to grab my attention, but his volume is so much lower he’s easy to ignore.
During those bygone foggy times, whenever the thought of sobriety crossed my mind, I immediately went to all the things I’d lose when I gave up pot and alcohol. I’ve even had a recovering friend describe his experiencing giving up alcohol as “losing my best friend”.
Now that I have quantified the outsized impact a single night of drinking and debauchery can have on my body, I’ve been legitimately scared sober.