Day 111 – I’m Spectacular In My Calculated Failure
Yes. I actually sat down and calculated that I had made it 99.4% of the way to my goal. If that’s not some sort of crazy alcoholic logic, I don’t know what is. Failure was imminent.
Yes. I actually sat down and calculated that I had made it 99.4% of the way to my goal. If that’s not some sort of crazy alcoholic logic, I don’t know what is. Failure was imminent.
Since I began my sobriety journey and started to recast my relationship with pot and alcohol, I had no idea, no feeling, of how numb I had become. I had been through the death of my mother-in-law, my father (at the height of Covid) – both from cancer. Like you, I dealt with Covid 19. There was also a crazy hostile work environment going on at the same time. Yet, through it all, I was numb. If I felt anything, it was anger, frustration, exhaustion.
In becoming more mindful, your goal is create space so you can more objectively view your thought parade, better understand how it is affecting you physically, spiritually, and emotionally. You are now free to make better decisions having disengaged your autopilot.
When we hung up, I was parked in front of the supermarket. I needed to run in and pick up a few things for my wife. Before long, I found myself at the end of the cavernous beer aisle itching to pick up a six pack of IPA.
Before I quit for good in July 2022, I had been smoking pot for over […]
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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