I’ve written about this whole sugar and ‘addiction transfer’ problem previously. For the past several weeks, it’s been a pretty big crutch for me. As I’ve mentioned in prior posts, I never considered sugar swapping to be a long term solution.
Afterall, don’t we all suffer from feelings of loneliness and isolation from time to time. Perhaps we suffer from these things more than we’re willing to admit. Isn’t is possible that what is causing us to think of that person in the first place is the simple fact that they wish to be thought of?
Over the long years, I have associated drinking alcohol with relaxation and the pleasure of drunken dopamine. Now I increasingly see my alcohol and marijuana cravings as gateways to sleep deprivation, hangovers, gastro intestinal issues, weight gain, bloating, brain fog, and general unpleasantness.
I didn’t realize how incredibly exhausted I really was. I had become numb to feeling tired all of the time, and still, I got up every morning, drank a pot of coffee, and powered through it. That was my strategy for dealing with extreme sleep deprivation. And at some point a few months ago, I hit a wall.
Since I had never refused to take a hit of pot before (pretty much ever), I hadn’t noticed the Pavlovian reaction in social situations. Pulling bong hits was something altogether different. Shit, I had gone and classically conditioned myself!