It’s more punishment than I expected, but no less than I deserved. There’s a lesson here that I obviously needed to learn at this point in my sobriety journey. And it’s this: A single night of drinking erases two weeks of hard earned weight loss.
Today I am 100 days free from pot! I’m convinced that smoking pot places a huge fog machine in the brain and clouds the mind for many days following its use.
I never planned to quit smoking pot. In fact, my pot addiction was simply collateral damage. It was the hapless victim of a little over a month of daily mindfulness meditation targeting my alcohol use. I should have instead titled this blog entry: How Meditation Used Me To Deal With Pot Addiction.
Yes. I actually sat down and calculated that I had made it 99.4% of the way to my goal. If that’s not some sort of crazy alcoholic logic, I don’t know what is. Failure was imminent.
It is worth noting that while alcohol remains a pernicious influence, meditation is helping me grapple with it. While my sobriety record is far from perfect, meditation has resulted in a marked reduction in my alcohol consumption.