Days 101 to 103 – Staring Into The Eyes Of Temptation
We trade the instant dopamine rush for a lingering feeling of guilt and disappointment that itself is cured by, you guessed it, another instant dopamine rush
We trade the instant dopamine rush for a lingering feeling of guilt and disappointment that itself is cured by, you guessed it, another instant dopamine rush
“Yeah, I know, but…” I rewound the video, watched it again, and then the message sank in. That’s precisely what I was/am trying to do. That’s what so many of us are trying to do. We are stuck. Bogged down by our own baggage, all that crap we’ve accumulated and carry with us all our lives.
So, here I’ve arrived at the point where I no longer love drinking. And I don’t hate my new evolving relationship with alcohol, either. It’s fair to say I now have a love – hate relationship with drinking and sobriety.
When we hung up, I was parked in front of the supermarket. I needed to run in and pick up a few things for my wife. Before long, I found myself at the end of the cavernous beer aisle itching to pick up a six pack of IPA.
I wasn’t 100% sure I was going to be able to make it through last night’s holiday potluck sober. But I was determined to try. My first tactic was to sit down next to John, the only other person in this group who I know doesn’t drink.
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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