Day 110 – The Challenge Before Me
While I am more confident about my sobriety than I’ve ever been, having prepared for this moment, there is a little piece of me that fears the challenge of the day ahead.
While I am more confident about my sobriety than I’ve ever been, having prepared for this moment, there is a little piece of me that fears the challenge of the day ahead.
The knowledge that the scale will give me unbiased feedback about my weight and my journal an avenue of reflection about why I’m achieving my weight (and other) goals or not, is a humbling prospect.
If you consider that four months ago I was not only smoking weed virtually everyday, but also drinking 5 to 9+ beers, 5+ nights a week, this is a lot of progress.
Even crazier was the sudden appearance of my third eye. It manifested as a sensation in the center of my forehead, right above the space between my eyebrows.
While I didn’t grasp it at the time, it turned out that bingeing had infiltrated nearly every aspect of my life. I had become downright gluttonous in most things – eating, drinking, streaming shows, you name it. Of course, I didn’t see it that way. You see, I was under the illusion that I was in control and exercising my own free will as I needlessly frittered my life away.
“There is neither heaven nor earth,
Only snow,
Falling incessantly”
-Hashin
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