To date, this is by far the most intense meditation experience yet. But rather than leaving me drained, I actually felt much lighter. Much lighter, in fact, than I’ve felt in a very long time. I was left not only lighter, but deeply inspired and loved.
Halloween is upon us again! And for me, it’ll be my first sober Halloween in, well… I can’t tell you how long. Probably sometime in high school, for anyone who likes to do math, that’s somewhere around 1989. Sh*t, I’m old!
A big part of mindfulness training is exploring where thoughts and emotions manifest in your body. So despite not needing anything in this section of the store, rather than avoid it, I made the conscious decision to not only go out of my way to visit the beer aisle, but to be fully present while there.
Instead of euphoria, I found a spiraling use disorder. Covid 19 lockdowns added fuel to the fire. What had been a daily pot and a few times a week alcohol habit, became a nearly daily binge of both. I only took days off if the brutality of the hangover demanded it.
I am resolved that there will be no drinking until after Thanksgiving, preferably not until after achieving my first Thrice Lucky and weighing less than 200 pounds. That’s the goal anyway. It’s the redemption I need right now.